In truth, I don’t feel very settled in all of this. I feel like I should be basking in the glory of God’s promises, I should be rejoicing in all the good he has done for us… but the truth is I feel unstable and strangely hollow at times. For the first time I begin to relate to the author of Ecclesiastes who laments that in great blessing or great struggle… all is vanity and a chasing after the wind.
I have been praying, planting and nurturing, and enjoying the simplicity of planning and planting seeds. It all seems very manageable when you are in that place. And now this year, I am becoming overwhelmed with the fruit! My dream is turning into a bit of a nightmare!
I think God wants to enlarge our territory and calls us to expand into bigger spaces – not because we need to be important, or have influence, or matter more, but because He has limited children willing to say YES to his potentially messy plans, and it’s how he’s able to bless the world!
Today, I considered a new layer of Advent! Not only celebrating preparing ourselves figuratively for the celebration of the birth of Christ, but a preparation and time of clearing out my own heart to offer a birth place for not only the savior who does live in us, but with him comes the dreams that God has in mind for me to give birth to.
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