I once rode a horse one hundred miles in a day, through a forest fire with a woman on a mule named Danny who sang songs she’d made up to help pass the time…
I once rode a horse one hundred miles in a day, through a forest fire with a woman on a mule named Danny who sang songs she’d made up to help pass the time…
It’s already day two of the new year. Winter is not my favorite season, but not my least favorite either. Overnight we had a dusting of snow, enough to put … Continue reading The Real Passion
In truth, I don’t feel very settled in all of this. I feel like I should be basking in the glory of God’s promises, I should be rejoicing in all the good he has done for us… but the truth is I feel unstable and strangely hollow at times. For the first time I begin to relate to the author of Ecclesiastes who laments that in great blessing or great struggle… all is vanity and a chasing after the wind.
She would take hold of the bow like a club with a tight fist and drag it almost violently back and forth across the violin that sat precariously in front of her on her collar bone- not balanced on the shoulder where it would eventually need to rest in order to move to richer sounds and advanced playing ability.
When the LORD speaks, life bursts forth! His voice brings the crumbling of false walls, false selves, false barriers. The voice of the LORD reveals truths previously hidden or obscured. The voice of the LORD obliterates chains and forms of bondage.
As the revelation dawned that once again I am seeing the people who create speed bumps and potholes in what I am certain is my well-deserved straight path before me I remember the sons of thunder from Luke 9:54 (“Lord, do you want us to tell fire to come down from heaven and consume them?”) I imagine Jesus shaking his head at them, and at me, wondering when will you get it?
The author reflects on feeling uncertain about her direction in life. She turns to Yahweh for clarity and guidance. Through an impression of a bright but unclear futures, she is reminded to embrace the present tasks and challenges, as they are part of the journey- finding solace in taking hopeful steps forward amidst life’s uncertainties and responsibilities.
I want to sow a field of trust in God for what he is going to bring out of the ground. I want to take the seeds God is handing me and throw them into the ground without having to know what they are in advance. I want to be a woman who sows those seeds and knows with confidence that in the appointed time (Kairos) the harvest will come!
I think God wants to enlarge our territory and calls us to expand into bigger spaces – not because we need to be important, or have influence, or matter more, but because He has limited children willing to say YES to his potentially messy plans, and it’s how he’s able to bless the world!
Today, I considered a new layer of Advent! Not only celebrating preparing ourselves figuratively for the celebration of the birth of Christ, but a preparation and time of clearing out my own heart to offer a birth place for not only the savior who does live in us, but with him comes the dreams that God has in mind for me to give birth to.