Lately I’ve been more concerned and interested in what I’m doing and where I’m going… in part because it seems like in circles, no where or maybe backward sometimes. What season am I in? Why do resources seem more and more scarce and clarity is fleeting?

This morning I wondered… Is it possible I’ve taken a partial vision of where I think I’m headed and began running down a side trail? What if the things I thought I understood weren’t the vision at all? What if I was being called to regroup or let go of where I thought I was going… in fact… where DO I think I am going?

This year my word is around JOY and the verse that I might remember to ASK that my JOY will be made complete. So I am trying to remember not to forget to simply pause and ASK more often when I’m unsure. So this morning I came before the LORD and in bold humility I asked:

Father, will you show me where I am going and what it looks like so that I might be in step with you as we walk there together?

As I waited quietly, I saw in my mind the pulling back a curtain on that future, but it was so bright I could not see much. It was gleaming with hope and glory. Blinding.

Don’t worry, he assured me, you can’t miss it, I’ve laid it out before you. Just keep moving and you will find yourself there.

So then what do I do for now?

Whatever you find before you. Whatever tasks and steps are there, pick them up and do them with excellence and joy. 

Submit willingly and joyfully to the training and tests I have set out for you. The limitations you’re given are by design, not lack. The materials I provide for you to build with are what I want to be placed into service. They are the materials I want to compose the structures. You aren’t “making due” you are working with what I choose for you. During this time you are learning the processes and the skills you will need as you “scale up” in your life of building in the kingdom. Do not worry or be anxious, nothing is wasted, and everything set before you has great purpose, even if it seems small.

And with that, I got up and began to address the dishes in the sink after two very full work days, and to fold the laundry and call the HVAC repair company (the furnace is not firing) and plan for an afternoon of grant writing and parent emails for my strings program. I set my intention of getting some much needed practice in for the concert this weekend this afternoon, while considering if it will be too cold, windy and possibly snowing to get my endurance horse out tomorrow for a little workout as we lead up to her first event of this season…. oh yes, and I need to make dog food (probably tomorrow) and some phone calls about the expo I am hosting this July. One hope-filled step at a time. The way, I suppose, we all keep moving onward down the road before us.